Psychological Suffering and Depression are illusions

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Psychological Suffering and Depression are illusions I suffer from depression, dysphoria and anhedonia just to name a few, from chronic hardcore meth use. I manufactured meth for many years and was a very heavy IV user. Meth literally shrinks the dendrites causing a larger synaptic gap, and an inability of neurotransmitters to be utilized properly. Especially dopamine. The receptors get burned out and so many years of the lack of reuptake diminishes stores and the amount that can be stored.

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Psychological Suffering and Depression are illusions

Psychological Suffering and Depression are illusions

I suffer from depression, dysphoria and anhedonia just to name a few, from chronic hardcore meth use. I manufactured meth for many years and was a very heavy IV user. Meth literally shrinks the dendrites causing a larger synaptic gap, and an inability of neurotransmitters to be utilized properly. Especially dopamine. The receptors get burned out and so many years of the lack of reuptake diminishes stores and the amount that can be stored. So for me anything that used to make me happy really doesn’t anymore, and anytime I experience any happiness or pleasure it’s bland compared to what it should be. Also long term use leads to Parkinson’s. I have already lost my steady hand and shake a good bit. I’m only 36, started when I was 15. Natural psychedelics have always helped, especially Psilocybin since it promote neurogenesis, but I believe the damage is far beyond repairable aside from maybe stem cell treatment. I want to feel better and not be depressed but the psychical damage prevents that. Along with more tragedy’s and trauma than any person should ever have to deal with in their life. Don’t be like me, don’t do that shit. - Shane W.

I am sorry to hear that. That’s a pretty rough life, no matter the reasons.

I do not think that I’ve been successful in my communication so far, b/c the point has still not been understood.

Everything you know about the brain so far which you have mentioned has absolutely no effect on the actual functioning of ‘thought’, and the fact still remains that the body can neither know happiness nor despair.

The reason why you are depressed is that you have not yet accepted reality as it truly exists. You are seeking to be happy, and that merry hunt for happiness is the source of your suffering.

How do you know that you’re happy? When do you become aware of it? At what point does the organism become aware of happiness or suffering? How do you recognize happiness? How do you recognize a blissful state of being? How do you identify the state of suffering?

You can give me a thousand reasons for each, but abstract away from your particular reasons.

You recognize something by the virtue of memory. In order to realize or recognize something, you must already know it. “Thought” informs the organism. What is “thought”?

You ask me my name. I repeat it so often that I reply immediately. Then you ask me more complicated questions, and then my mind beings to “think”. There is now this interval of time in which my mind is in operation to look for the answer in the banks of it’s knowledge. In this interval of time, what does my mind do? It reaches back into the recesses of memory, looking for an answer from the things that it knows.

So, “thought” is a response of memory.

Now, as soon as you recognize that you’re happy, the happiness vanishes. As soon as “thought” informs you that you’re happy, you recognize it by the virtue of “thought” and thought is the “past”, something you “already” have.

So, the reason why happiness vanishes as soon as you realize it, is because you cannot realize an experience while having it. There is no simultaneity of experience and it’s recognition. In recognition, there is always involved “memory” which is the past. So, when you realize this, you realize that the only reason you recognize happiness or suffering was that it moved into the past, it vanished and went away.

Sir, no amount of neurological difference will ever account as the functioning of “thought” is the same across all organisms of the species. The functioning of thought transcends any particular brain and it’s micro-differences and environmental factors.

o, there is no way for you to know and/or experience happiness or suffering.

shrug I’m not sure how else to say this. This is the simplest terms in which I can put it. The problem is that the nature of your inner chaos is so complex, it simply won’t accept the simplicity of it.

Hash C Borgir, I get that, thank you. - Shane W.

I almost always use “I” (myself”) as an example. I hope I didn’t come off confrontational when I didn’t’ mean to. You are most welcome.

It really is very simple to understand these things. One simply has to follow thought and just watch it do its thing.

While I see your point, what then could be said of the actual physiological differences in brains who seem to “suffer” the most? I support very much that we create our own world, but if we don’t will ourselves into physical debilitations then why would mental illness be different? No ones freedom from their own mental hell would be the same for anyone. Peace my friend! - Matthew D.

The functioning of ‘thought’ is exactly the same on all biological levels for all organisms of any species. This is what makes possible the biological phenomenon of Morphic Resonance. If I am to solve the problem of my psychological suffering, then by necessity and definition I must be the one giving it continuity, otherwise, there is no reason for me to do anything about it.

“I” want to sovle “my” suffering and go beyond “my” agony. Do you see that the source of my suffering is the “self” that continues to give continuity to it’s own suffering?

So long as the “self” exists, I must be in agony. The very nature of the “I” is Disorder.

Psychologists will try to sell you healing, as the spiritual guru will try to sell you healing. All they are doing is telling you how to have a “self” that functions properly in society by the norms put forth by society.

So, if you have an adequately functioning self, then you are constantly giving continuance to your suffering, because it is the divisive, egotistical, and self-centered activity of the “self” that is the precursor to all misery, all suffering, and all agony.

That makes sense still to the sort of existential pain a self can put itself through, but what then of the schizophrenic? To deny we all have different chemistry in our brain that affects every way we can perceive the world seems strange from someone very deeply experienced in altering their own brain chemistry.

Did you know that the scholars of comparative religions and evolutionary anthropology compare and often equate schizophrenia with Shamanism?

I don’t think I’ve denied anything. What have I denied? If you don’t mind quoting me, I’d appreciate it.

You haven’t denied it, I apologize for implying that you had, you discredited psychologists abilities to free ones mind. I don’t disagree entirely but i’m sure its helped more than a few people realize their own truths. Its only worth what you put in which I feel does support your original post.

There is no such thing as “your” truth vs. “my” truth, or “his” truth, or “her” truth. Truth is truth. What makes something true is the Universality of it.

There is no such thign as truth. The only thign that is actually there is one’s logically ascertained premise of what is truth, which is data collected via the organs of sense perception, verified by another.

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